My Thoughts Can Bring Me To Tears...

I'm just walking. Too numb to feel anything. Going through the motions with pretty much everything I do these days. I want to move on, get past it as "they" say, but for some reason I can't. And I don't know why.
You lied to me. Mislead me. Only stayed with me so that no one else could love me. Now there's this battle between my head and my heart that really shouldn't be. My heart says move on, get past it as "they" say, find love. But my head says stay and work it out.
We won't be friends, we can't be friends...too much hurt and pain between us. All I wanted though was...a friend. Friends can be counted on and don't change their mind when you need them. Friends don't take things back or brings things up. That trust word comes to mind again. Friends are someone who can be trusted. Not only with the tangible but the most intangible thing you have...the emotions of your heart.
I cherished that...the emotions of your heart. I held them dear.
I trusted you...with that...the emotions of my heart. At one time I gave them freely. Now there all bottled up again, some other man's burden to bear. Poor soul.
It hurts when you say it wasn't so. I never was "all in". How could you think that? I believed in you when you said no one else did. I wanted everything for you that you wanted and thought you needed. Supported your dreams more than my own.

A friend that's all I was looking for. Not a companion (that was his thing)...but a friend.

The Randomness of Life...

No friend of mine...has ever become my lover...so have I ever really had a friend?

HappiDaisy :o)